This blog is one of many reminders of things left unfinished on my to-do list. I just published a post that sat in my draft box for a few…months! I was so motivated to do this project not so long ago. What happened? Well, another P31 OBS has come and gone. I actually debated whether to delete my prior posts about “What Happens When Women Say Yes to God” by Lysa TerKeurst. I mean, I never finished the book. And I definitely did not participate in the study enough to write even a single blog post.
Can I do this? Does my participation in these studies even matter? Can I stop procrastinating enough to actually finish the unfinished items on my to-do list? Can I ever grow from the little items and get going to bigger and better places, where God ultimately wants me? Does it all even matter in the end?
But then I read something I actually wrote a while back: “But instead of making this a post about beating myself up, I’m turning it into a positive.”
Whoa. I wrote that?
Hmmm. Ok so here’s the positive(s): first, this outlines where I really need to work on my priorities. It’s past midnight and I’m up writing blog posts when I should have been in bed for at least an hour already. Second, I suppose I can look back at this and remember how hard I worked on adding (and hopefully finishing) a new interest to my life. Finally, I can see that sometimes I tend to take on too much and I struggle to get past the minor mistakes I’ve made. It’s ok to do something not so perfectly, because it’s really the progress that counts.
I want to do this, I really do. Now let’s get on with it!
“…instead of dwelling on those doubts, we dwell in God’s word…and conquer.” ~ October 9, 2013 by Melissa Taylor