I’m a 30-something year old Christian girl who is – in the words of my new favorite author Lysa TerKeurst – making “imperfect progress” in this crazy road we call life.
So, I have a few more things to admit here. First, I’m way new to blogging. I’m sure you can tell that by the bare bones look of this page so far. I’m hoping to make this space an online version of the journaling I already do. Second (or third depending on if you count my journaling as an admission), I am very undisciplined in my journal writing. I am constantly inspired by things in my very ordinary daily life, but the thoughts are stockpiled then slowly but surely I forget all the little details I wanted to write about. In fact, I’ve probably already opened 3 different internet tabs to check other things I had forgotten about until this very moment. When I do finally get around to journaling, I’m ready to explode then write until I’m spent.
Finally, conditions need to be near-perfect in order for me to relax. And relaxing to me means one of these few things: reading, writing, and jogging. For the record, I’ve been equally undisciplined in reading and jogging as well. Anyway, tonight is one of those “near-perfect” nights inspiring me to write. K-Love’s playing in the background, the windows are wide open as it’s in the mid-60s, there’s a candle burning in our (mostly) clean house. Of course there are a few things on the to-do list that could stand to be done, but I’m finally learning to let go and let myself relax.
What’s leading me to write a blog in the midst of all this rambling ? Well a few things recently have been laid on my heart and mind to write. Mainly, I want to become more involved in the online Bible studies I’m participating in for Proverbs 31 and (in)courage. Sure, the only real requirement is to read the particular book. But I’m tired of taking the easy way out. Why do things if they aren’t beneficial to my personal growth? There are online discussions, assignments, blog hopping… I want to be involved. Another reason is because I need to become more disciplined. Just like how I’m improving with jogging – instead of expecting myself to run miles a few times a month, I have been working out at the gym 3 times a week for the past several months tracking real progress. Little steps = big progress. So instead of starting a brand new journal every year, only to abandon it by June, I’m hoping to use these online Bible discussions as a way to keep my writing focused and disciplined. Just like the gym, I may miss a day here or there – but it’s still forward motion – PROGRESS! And that’s got to count for something, even if I don’t yet quite know all my plans and goals.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 39:11